I’m Sor-ting Ev-ry-thing In-side

Sitting here stranded.  ...feeling lost in the world of humans.  They always love my attention, my company, my caring, my opinions, viewpoints and advice. I've always been the resolving aid, the loving help and assistance when anyone is hurting and troubled. And we always resolve, heal and solve.  But whenever I need such understanding, noone…

“just a nother diary page without a name”

I read this »small but great« widom story which goes like a needle so tiny, you would hardly notice it,  almost unnoticeably and rapidly pleasant  pokes a hole in some deep layers ... of facts of so many people,  hits an ignorance factor ... of down dumbing dence bubbles  insecure~suffering~egoswelling~egotripp  fears-feeding stuff, and makes us…

SvobodňíCýl  /  FreedomGoal

(CZ) Konečňe nápad kteý my vzbuďil srce ... apřipomíná my to jak se to cití spavňe a pořádňe dýchát.   (EN) Finally an idea that makes my heart wake up and beat. ...reminds me of how it feels to breathe again.  All though I always seems to have ideas of all sorts, and have been…

Am I Made For Relationships?

Maybe not !  ...these days I feel again as after most relationships, that I don't know how to feel free~be free inside the world of living in a relationship.  People go from intimacy to intimacy like all the spoiled kids I've ever known go through toys, with the (to me) same kind of shallowness without…

A Rotten Character Type

Game-playing, friends with everyone~noone, superficial, smile in your face while stabing you in the back (typical scorpio) ~a combination that makes him(or any person) a bad/rotten person.  This Andy here, he made a scene like a spoiled snobby female, and out of total bullshit; saying this is not a hotel (about someone who has been…

“The Light Man”

Looking in his eyes, still seeing what I was percieving in him and about him, even though things seemed to take a turn which proved him to be somewhat different of character than the impressions that I had been receiving. ...seeming to be rather deceiving.  So now as I see his charming face everyday, and…

HumanMade LivingWorld

Other places on this very same planet are so beautiful that you just can't help but getting filled with the most pleasing feelings of gratitude for everything from time to time, including feeling greatful to yourself, for being here now enveloped in such beauty, and even if you should be sad and lonely, even if…

When Loving Helps You 2selfdestruct. 

...didn't even want to make love. And eventually he even wrote me a message saying that he just wants to fuck. I cried for hours like a waterfall, feeling physiclly as if it was twisting my heart and crushing my guts inside.  It felt like I'm the old one. ...a familiar feeling in this life,…