She was 8 and I was 9. We were both in the after-school place. I was still pretty new there, but playing with playmobile stuff with some unmemorable-to-me friend, and we had pretty much just begun, as Ann-Carina arrived with a girlfriend who was asking us, if they could play along. We both accepted the…
I don’t know if she will be sad
DANIELA, .... full of lies, and going on about herself all the time. If you then eventually talk about you of something that matters, then she rapidly finds something to distract herself if not both of you with. When she gets a real chance to be a good friend she shows that she is not.…
When we give in with or without ego at the wheel.
When we give in, as something have become too much for too long, naturally causing your system to become dysfunctional. Either you can't sleep, or can't wake up properly or both. You don't wanna be social, perhaps you don't even feel like going outside in the grey cold city winter scenery. Till eventually you don't…
Dismantling the feelings in writing
Going through every feeling, sensation, any tickle of any feeling, to figuring out some parts of what emotions are happening around and in writing. Whenever at any given time I think of it when I'm actually writing."What is it that I'm feeling right now here while writing." There are several things in it, from subject…
What is the real Purpose of negative/bad
To cut it out in big /make it black and white, to spell it out / feed it to you with a spoon, the purpose of negative/bad feeling whatever it may be, is realization.Love the negative.Feel grateful for Pain.Otherwise if you had an unnoticed cut, you'd bleed to death.From whatever negative/bad feeling anything, there is…
What do I like/love about me!?
Hm... well, this feels delicate yet raw. ...and like I have to be bold to decode what I in fact really feel on this subject at this point. My normal and healthy body. ...and finally even my hair. ...and all of me. Even my not muscletoned looking belly. My strong immune system. My ability to…
Content But Emotionally Drained
An illusion of Love!?
1way2know if you are going CRAZY like a scientist.
If you spend too much time alone in your lab, like I do with my researching every other thing, then you could be going slowly nuts, without ever realizing it! There are two point, out of which one always comes before the other. So you actually get 2 warnings! So!, before they put you away,…