July 25th, 2019 WARNING ! >>> Extremely Authentic << I wonder where all the time has gone!? Smoking joints/porros/spliffs just seems to plant its seed to give time light-speed! Why do we do this? And once I sleep ... the wake up is a heavy one, and I don't really wanna be social the next…
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Going to different corners of my mind I thought of all the places, I thought of her, I thought of him, I thought of anywhere, and even anyone with whom, I ever felt fine I thought of anyone I could, with whom I simply ever felt good I thought of whoever of everyone that understood Goin…
Figure out why
Ok, wait a minute here, ... no doubt that I am so lucky with so many things, and I am absolutely grateful for the person I am, ever was and have become. …blabla…have grown much more than I though would even be possible. I'm not even sure if I ever even thought about it. Nevermind…
Ann-Carina
She was 8 and I was 9. We were both in the after-school place. I was still pretty new there, but playing with playmobile stuff with some unmemorable-to-me friend, and we had pretty much just begun, as Ann-Carina arrived with a girlfriend who was asking us, if they could play along. We both accepted the…
When we give in with or without ego at the wheel.
When we give in, as something have become too much for too long, naturally causing your system to become dysfunctional. Either you can't sleep, or can't wake up properly or both. You don't wanna be social, perhaps you don't even feel like going outside in the grey cold city winter scenery. Till eventually you don't…
Dismantling the feelings in writing
Going through every feeling, sensation, any tickle of any feeling, to figuring out some parts of what emotions are happening around and in writing. Whenever at any given time I think of it when I'm actually writing."What is it that I'm feeling right now here while writing." There are several things in it, from subject…
What is the real Purpose of negative/bad
To cut it out in big /make it black and white, to spell it out / feed it to you with a spoon, the purpose of negative/bad feeling whatever it may be, is realization.Love the negative.Feel grateful for Pain.Otherwise if you had an unnoticed cut, you'd bleed to death.From whatever negative/bad feeling anything, there is…
Duality is not all there is…
There is the one side of me that keeps suffering. ...all dogma, mainstream meaninglessness. Theres much too say about it, but for example most people can relate to working for money (instead of for the world, and for others). Everyone is slaving away for money because we accept to live like idiots. ... Like sheeple…
* What’s In Early Mornings
What is it in waking up early, that feels so liberating. It's surely not the moments on having to get out of bed. But past getting out of bed, once you're up, there is this tranquillity ...and then when the sun starts rising you still got 6 whole hours till noon. Then you feel that…
Unfinished Sympathy – A Niravan Blast From The Past
* Looking back . . . It was like a book that I had opened, and now wanted to know much more, but didn't get to. It felt like having met an old homie from teenage times. Even your music was familiar in that way, and I loved your laid back ways and down to…