Yes, finally after more than 2 years of periodic research, and tons/thousands of personal stories on youtube, I am doing it.

I am a bit nervous; will I have enought time with iboga in 3 days?, or will it be terribly hard on me?, and will the whole of it all move enough things the way I want/wish/need to so and so …., and and and …

It is all a bit strange …

And now that I know I can and will quit smoking, everything, I enjoyed my coffe with cigarette more, and I’m reeeeally enjoying the evening joint.

For a moment I even felt as if I wanna stay up longer to smoke another and another. ..wow!? Haha.. I kind of do!

Feels like a moment to be saying ,,Thank you for the time I’ve spent with you Marihuana”. …hm, yes and thank you tobacco.

It has been much interesting discovery getting to really know you, and me with you. I like you but our purpose is done. So we don’t need to be with each other anymore. Be well with you Smoking!

And for the joints, it’s enought of over spaced out for nothing existence for me now. I was born spaced out, I am spaced out enough naturally.

I’d like to be free of all addictive things somehow. Not enough to loose my good taste in any way, but not be enslaved in stupid ways to any whatever that doesn’t serve me, or anyone.

Most of all, I want all pain to go away, all suffering to disappear from my body mind and soul.

I wish to be in Mika’s shoes in spirit, to know him better, from within. I want to find ….I HAVE TO FIND that he is now mean, that he is not really cold.

I don’t mind if I find out, that he is just not so bright, and/or that he is of those people with a disassociated self.