It is about who you are. Not about anything that happened.

As i have said before in some previous article, being there for someone through their hardest times, is an honor. Now I want to add, that it is a bigger honor than being there with them when they acheive their greates praise, or get awarded something.

Think about it! …who doesn’t want to show and share their best moments, and stand in all the magnifiscent splendor!? While hardly anyone feels good to show and share their worst moments.

But relentless pain feels impossible to forgive, which causes it to torture us furher. And it stays in the back of my mind, that a friend is in a trauma so hard, that it only feels right to ask for forgiveness for not being able to forgive.

I was not sharp enough, to see and feel clearly enough, to have the right things to say in the moments of conversation. But some voice in me won’t leave it be, as if telling me ,,But You!, do know the answers. And know I do, I just have to gather my senses, clear through my thoughts n layers … so I write, to do it, to get past my thoughts, and into the flow of knowlegde, and all the way into my wisdom.

Who should be there to forgive you, for not forgiving, or anything? The religion stories claim that God/Allah/…etc. are there to forgive you, but we know it is not so. I know it is not like that. Only You can forgive you, for anything you are able, or rarher anything that to forgive, because you want to be free of it, so you can heal. Can you forgive you for not feeling, or for not at least seeing, that not working towards forgiving, is the not looking towards eventually having worked your way through the matter, and instead accepting to hold on to the trauma forever?

Picture this, if your heart is pure, the devil is “in” your face, trying to get you to feel bad about something, and stay with it, so he can feed from that bad energy you hold. It’s the same with drugs and alcohol.

It is about who you are. It is about who you choose to be. Are you one who wants to keep suffering ongoing, have such war? Are you one who wants revenge? Are you one who chooses to want to be in this and any fighting scenario, or are you a lobe bringer, a peace holder, a harmony bringer?

You choose to be a victim, or a holder of grudge. Are you a wounded warrior awaiting an opportunity for revenge? Or do you choose to express love in the face of hatred!?

You choose if you want to be that one to carry an ugly scar. ..and another, and another. Haha.. do you choose to be the one that bites the dust? …and wanders on for the rest of time with ugly scars and dirt on you face!?

You choose!, to become crippled by injuries, or evolve into the pure true healed, ~all improved you, that you really are? ..one who has the almighty power to forgive and send LOVE in the face of the worst crime. FROM WHICH EVIL TWISTS OF ILL FEELING.

What more would you want!?, what better could you possibly wish the executor of your torturous suffering (who is already obviously traumatised ~screwed up), if you want a better world?…unless you have some good other power to clean it up?