Hi David,

ok this ended up dragging out. Sorry I took a few centuries …

…first I saved whatever written, to continue it in the next day or two. Then eventually corrected mistakes and answered some more, saved again for later, but only to then later find, that the draft-saving had fooled its own system and failed Me totally, by having saved nothing.

So …yeah … and once I got to the the last lines of yours,

and saw the Skype call suggestion especially, then I had to laugh.

I’ve copied n pasted your questions, and answered in between them,

… indicating you and me with these little emoji types of things.

It turned quite long, but I get the impression that you like to read,

…and there is even a crazy story towards the end, which I’ve only told to very few,

(because most ordinary people turn out not to have the capacity to even believe it).

Maybe between June 13-July 3rd…but I have to find my passport or apply for another one first.

ok, sounds like you could use a personal assistant ..haha.. me too! …well, let me know as soon as you know for sure/exactly, because I have to arrange for myself to be there as well. …yeah, because I’ve become a bit caught in the danish system. …basically because I found myself floating into financial crisis (and since I have no family left, to go relax and come to my senses at, …ever since my grandMother died in 2002 (I’ve been non-stoppable even through burnout on burnout, on burnout), so finally bla bla bla …and I didn’t, know what else to do, (but so far, what a bummer, turning to the danish system).

But for the moment I know, I have to be in Berlin the 1st 2nd and 3rd of june, when my band goes second round in Emergenza (worlds biggest band compettition). …haha.. let’s see how far we get!?

Some questions for you… Do you donate significant money to a guru or religion, and if not, and if you won the lottery, who would you donate significant money to, and why?

Well, I was a traveling dancer, didn’t build up anything to fall back on, so actually I am in …well most accurately said, in financial despair at the moment, ~ have nothing, so, no I am not. …donating. But actually, instead, from some friends observations turned to comments, of questioning my actions (while I had nothing, another time before), they’ve made me realize, that I have the tendency to share all I have, even through times before, when I didn’t know for what I would survive tomorrow -kind of thing.

…. And yes okay, actually, when i think about it and look back, I do recognize, I have also too often given and given (from a tendency to put others first) to then be left with nothing, and noone to care to help me in return.

~~when i can give of me and have what to share, then i have many friends and bigger circles of people in my life, but the minute I fall, everyone is gone. Indicating that most people are fearful sheeple. EVEN ALL THE WISE TALKING ONES, who appeared to be spiritual or wise, or both. …well, people simply show their true face in such times. And i appreciate that. As I am above that myself. …and I personally, have never walked away from someone who was down.

But just before it’s too late someone always appears to help me, usually half a stranger, or a complete stranger. (karma perhaps)

And many of the same types of people who turned away, end up “kissing my ass” later on, when I have redefined and risen, as I always do.

So I know that I would anytime always hide it all I can, if I suddenly happen to be very rich on finance. …to see and feel all the more true faces of people, all the way. ~ to not live a lie without knowing it -so to say. And then I would probably rather help some anonymously.

…and anyway, my experience is, that what goes around, truly does come around, no matter what.

But I know very well (since a long time) what I will do with a huge amount, like, as you say, a lottery win.

Firstly, there’s a few special friends (my world family) ..a few, who I want to take out into the world, for a spiritual growth journey, away from sheeple world, to give them a chance to grow for real, by experiencing other worlds, some of what I know, and some of what I want to know and share the experiences of with them. …more than likely even incl. some 3 months of ayahuasca and iboga, to cleanse, heal, reset and set free. 2of my friends need that, severely, in my impressions. (I have done over a years research on that stuff; it even cures cancer and psoreasis, and other illnesses very easy, while psychological damage takes a long time).

But before making any real moves at all, I would spend a longer time in the thinking and feeling-out, what is At-That-Time the best to do, partly by visiting the two absolutely most genius humans I know on this earth, for them to assist me in this wise contemplating, researching and so-to-say brainstorming for the wisest decision making.

I know I am alive to be learning~growing as much as possible, while i am in this physical form, haha.. I can’t really explain it, but I can feel that it is here in this physical life, that your growing is of some most profound universal effects to your whole being (however those words can make sense to you), SO therefore that aspect of life here, would have all to do with my decisions, on what good to do for this world as a whole, with my powers of money, in this case.

But I think that I will end up building up my 3 main business ideas, and set it up, so that they all permanently donate some %.

I may seem silly and be funny etc. in general, but it is kind of because, I am way too deep and serious inside, for the majority of most humans … But it is with those very same natural skills or aspects of me, that I make impossible things possible in life. Literally. …when I am feeling all right.

Would you go vegan for a vegansexual like myself? I don’t really know what veaganSexual is supposed to mean, exactly, but I will go vegan FOR ME, and ok, for animals of course, not For another person. Because I know, not only, but also from experience, that in most cases, it would be somewhat self-betrayal to do otherwise. …and that self-betrayal, eventually betrays outwards ~ betrays the other person as well of course. But I would use a such a person, perhaps for example, in this case you, as the perfect and accurately supporting environment, for achieving this goal.

Meanwhile I am practically a vegetarian, probably a vegan by nature, because I remember very well, all the first times I was forced in stubborn ways, by my well meaning old-fashioned dad, to eat meat especially. …what a trauma that was every time.

Would you go straight edge to date me? haha.. No, …how to say … I would be doing …something like, my own best for my self, not to just jump into waters that I don’t really know. …as I want to really know someone first. I find the intimate blending of energies to actually be SO-in-all-ways!, a blending of existence and all its energies, and partly …perhaps especially therefore, it is rather sacred to me. …to get as intimate, as the trying to become one (which most humans do very unaware/unconsciously (which is obviously also part of why most couples dont even stay real friends after breaking up). But by the way, I don’t date. I have had few relationships, but either I have been with someone, or had some affairs. But no dating, like that of “american” movies (which I don’t live by at all).

….But i have much more to say about this subject!

Do you think you could keep up the straight edge vegan lifestyle when you’re not around your partner? Again, I know it is the wrong approach, for such things to depend entirely on another person, and I refrain from making promises as much as possible, in general. What you eat ~choose for nutrition, should be a personally individual thing/responsibility, while To Begin With, in this case, one either wants to be vegan or not.

BUT ALSO, since I have not really properly experienced being vegan, I also feel I would lie if I just said yes. Somehow it doesn’t make proper sense to me, to eat this or that for a partner or anyone. …unless someone actually needs such a supporting help, to keep an important diet, or to mak a change of lifestyle.

But to share some detail regarding where I am with that, and where I wanna go, …I do feel I want to be vegan, … the only things I really love, which are So not Vegan, are eggs, fish/shrimps, and our scandinavian (and french, and german) mega wide …the worlds broadest variety selections of unbelievably delicious tasting cheeses. ……. Though funny enough, EVEN THOSE are things, that I was pushed into as a child. I remember not liking neither cheese nor eggs or fish etc..

I was naturally drawn to bread, and even before I could walk, I would wake up at night and crawl to the bread box. haha.. I have seen photos of baby-me sitting in the dark munching bread, and have a vague memory of not being sure if they would, now that they had found me, get angry or what, but they didn’t. …instead they just took pictures!?

But the more I have integrated the understandings of the energies and vibrations of animal-related foods, and also the micro …or cellular levels of it all, the more i see n feel it being a wrong thing with bad effects in the bigger picture.

For me personally …perhaps sort of fractally, but still, for as long as I can remember, something in me has always had some weird need, for some kind of cleanliness ..purity or so. …!? ..on all levels. I also hate lying, and feel it is a self betraying n self polluting act, first of all.

Do you consider yourself a life-long learner? Absolutely Yes, …well ok, I answered that already. Plus I am a … something like a truth seeker always, and a health researcher for over a decades time now! …started as a journey for myself, away from the pharma worlds mostly destructive false aids, and into true natural curing and healing. …because my gut suffered from antibiotics, and no doctor giving them to me, had ever even mentioned any probiotics! But I had no idea that the research would turn so never-ending. …and so increasingly nearly-all knowing, regarding human health, and leading way out into connecting and syncronizing with the very earth itself, and as well the health of the earth itself. …..in fact I am often so sad and even partly discouraged ~being surrounded by what I call zombiePeople/sheeple, who cant even hear to comprehend the truth of most things. In these parts of the world here, I am feeling rather more alien. Only on Ibiza I felt half home with people. …and for the first time ever. Before Ibiza, I never even knew what homesickness feelt like, untill I was away from this island.

Besides dancing to keep the brain living long and healthy, what other brain beneficial activities, hobbies do you enjoy? I like a bit of this n that, prefferably not too much routine, all though I like muscle strenghtening/toning stuff which does become a bit routine. And my brain is always working non stop, analyzing , decoding, solving, …and I feed it some brain supporting nutrition along the way. ..haha..

Are you willing to learn more to become eco-savvy green? How do you plan to do that? Not that i ever heard this term really, but in all my common sense and logic feeling, it must be nourishing/caring for and respecting nature, which I wish everyone would be raised to learn about, to understand deeply. ….So how I plan to do it, not that I do plan it, When I see nothing that looks like it around me anywhere, so I just wish to be surrounded, at least part-time, by the environment where this is happening. Because I do all sorts of things on my way, to be good to the nature environment in general. …and I’m not a fan of plastic.

Do you live to work or work to live? Neither. Working to live is insane. Living to work sounds like not being free to follow my heart and spirit. I live to investigate, observe, explore and create, learn and grow. …as a traveling dancer, this worked well for over a decade.

If you could travel around the world for a year all expenses paid, where would you go, what would you do, and how would you travel? Horse and carriage! ..haha… ..ok not so feasible I guess. But a nice romantic-life idea I’ve always felt to try out.

I would go to the world famous Spa city/town, Karlovy Vary (because its magical and I miss it, and want to spend a good time revisiting now that I am older, it is where i partly grew up, besides Copenhagen).

Siberia (for the healing lakes and for feeling the mystical power-places of energies).

Indonesia and New Zealand (to explore the nature).

South Pole (aiming for the center, because it seems from all my researches that there is none).

Cambodia and Laos (for the history),

then Thailand (to connect with one rare quality of bamboo parasols constructions for my ‘raw elegance’ creations)

then explore Italy,

and finally visit Ibiza (for charging up my superpowers).

And after that I would go take Egypt by storm, because that is my zenith of highest power zones, according to my personal astro. So why not check it out and make connection with it.

What kind of teenager were you? I was insecure/shy, staying back and observing when everyone started doing the girlfriend boyfriend games, and was horrified by how people behave, which made me stay passive till I was turning 18, and since then I still take it calmly. MEANWHILE, I was the one everyone would come to, with their life-questions and issues etc. And I’m proud to say that my answers, assistance and help always worked effectively.

Do you like to read? I have been writing “instead” of reading, since I was 11.

Besides the stories which schools made me read, I have on my own, only read a very few books. …one funny book about a ghost, Completely Crazy Monday, which made me laugh out loud. …and the rest non fiction.

Beautiful, wise and so respectfully written, was Letters To A Young Poet (Rainar Maria Rilke), and very interesting, when I though I would go to Lee Strassburg in NYC, was an old book of memoirs from acting lessons (Constantin Stanislavski).

And in some of my darkest times, the most uplifting book was Screw It Let’s Do It (Richard Branson), it inspired me so much, that I took on a months-months long period of writing and working, on a sporty business idea with a few big 3seater jetskiis, which I named Jet-Set Team (created according to Ibiza island).

But I am a writer, of some inconsistent weird kind. I realized that even more, when I was given something to read, of what people Consider to be of the highest Wisdom, because it felt like some sort of a trauma in my soul to read, because it was like reading my own diaries. …it hurt so deep and made the world appear too scary ~ retarded and lost.

Do yoga? Go hiking? Meditate? Do contact improv dance? Do bodybuilding at the gym? Snuggle? I like some yoga yes Hiking is apparently a very american thing, and so I did it once with a us.girl friend, who now, actually, lives in Maui.

To get into Meditating, really/properly, I am one who needs to be in the environment that supports it. But I do also suspect that I am an active-meditator who might actually need movement to do it (some of the time, not always). ….all though, I used to slip into that meditative state all the time, till about, age 5 or so. So yeah, we are probably ALL born with that meditative state of consciousness.

Yes, I like bodybuil… ok perhaps not exaclty building, for a feminine body, I guess I’m rather more towards the body-toning side. But I fell out of it in my saddening killer years in Berlin.

What is the worst first date you have ever been on? I think I’ve only ever been on one date, back when I lived on Ocean Drive in SoBe Florida. But it was nice, going everywhere near and far, eating good food, and topped off with a present of rollerblade shopping. But then life caused us to never see each other again, till years later on facebook hahah… but he’s now married to a woman that looks a bit like me. …funny enough!?

Could you while dating me, a solo polyamorous man, be accepting emotionally, sexually, of my other future partners? What is solo polyamorous? …a harem?, with other future partners, …well without looking it up, I know that ‘poly’ comes from the Greek language, where ‘poli’ means a lot/many, so …..well, my impression and sensing/feeling of you, is completing itself more now, and my feeling from some earlier messages, seems to be right on track as well, …as I get more and more the feeling, that you are in some silver-spoon/silver-platter kind of situation, from where the energetic consuming of others, especially sexually, thends to happen a whole lot. And so now, it also makes sense to me, why you are vegan(~saving animals) and planting trees and such(~helping nature), because (subconsciously) it gives a feeling of balancing karmic scales. …since the good deeds are healthy on the side of light, and consuming the sacred/highly spiritual creative energies of women, sexually, is of the dark side (this is not my opinion, but just plain facts).

Also, the requesting of another, what they eat, is putting yourself into the personally individual territory of another’s nourishment ..or rather to be accurate, Nutritional Choices, …this is actually something that only people who are somehow-spoiled (in one way or another) tend to do. …it’s ego related.

While Clearly, in a free world, of higher frequencies, such choices have to be based on ones own knowledge ~ and convictions, and not on the demands of another.

Meaning, … the right way, for you to go about getting someone else to your levels of knowledge, for making them WANT to CHOOSE to be (for example in this case) vegan, is rightfully and innocently done by sharing the awareness of all the knowledge you have about it, especially those energetic facts, about how eating animal produce is of a low vibration /negative energies, to even aggressive energies. Which you can then top off, by sharing the facts, of how most of animal products contain parasites on some level, and that dairy is all full of mucus. This way you are not manipulating free will and the choices thereof.

The way you go about it, by sort of demanding another person to choose your way (which makes it be more of a choice made for you, to be With you, rather than a choice made for themselves, and rather being in pure harmony with you) ~ you are actually “helping” to create the type of situation, where the cause and effects are, that energetically, dishonesty is invited into the other person, which eventually of course has effects outwards, and like this, lies happen to you. …which is part of what disconnects people and separates us.

All this is even more so, if I am right about, you being even just slightly above the average of working-class (in our monopoly society).

Could you see yourself in a line-family with me? I guess it does sound a bit like a harem thing huh? … while I cause the creation of something that I call World-Family, which is bonding better with another, than most classic/blood-related families manage to do. …probably because it is based on full acceptance of individuality ~ unconditional love ~ makes one feel more free in the togetherness, than in the solitude. …so to say.

~ with such (few wise people) we become family-like-friends for life, which no distance nor difficulties, disagreements, mistakes or even time apart, could ever break.

Perhaps it is some, of such people, who get born as twins in another lifetime. …who knows!?

Though, all the while, all at the same time, when it comes to the classic man-woman relationships, I do have an uneasy feeling, about getting tied down, not feeling free ~ by not being on the same levels.

~ I want a relationship, where both parts are each others best friend, and I keep experiencing, that I always become the best friend that others have ever known!? …so I want the same level of best friend from a man, that is the Compatible!

But, …so, do your girlfriends also have other boyfriends or what?

I think …. I might actually be too sharply tuned for such an ordeal, BECAUSE …I remember … HERE IS A CRAZY STORY, LIKE OUT OF THIS WORLD. ….once when an x (first big love, so romantic, ~ love of each others life) visited me in Copenhagen years ago, …. I picked him up in the airport, and on the way home to my place, I was suddenly feeling the weirdest most inexplainable thing on him; I was feeling a lot of people on him (the feeling is best described as energetic pollution, cause I could feel it wasn’t good/not of light -so to say), and of course I didn’t say anything …as I was having trouble understanding what the heck it was that i was sensing on him. So while inspecting these feelings, I of course though of, that it could at best only be a bunsh of women’s energies that I was sensing all over him, but there was so clearly a dis-resonance with the thought of women, …and so I remember being puzzled to the max. in my mind and in the whole of me, sitting there sensing all this insane-feeling stuff, and it of course crossed my mind that, if it isn’t a bunch of women, then what the …..!? …what is it then?, because I know him enough to know that it can’t be a bunch of men, and i could feel that there was some woman energy, but the whole mass of the rest was not women! and it was massive!

Months later, I came by visiting him in Vienna, and at dinner he very provokingly said, that if only I knew what his new girlfriend was, then I’d surely set the whole world in motion, as the fighter that I am for what’s right. At the time, it just sounded like one of his classic provocations, poking my emotional nature as usual, so when he said She’s a prostitude., I was just annoyed with his bad humor. Then later while he was at work, I noticed his diary, which was placed as if for me to find it, so (knowing our “relationship” also!) I just knew that this was meant for me to open and look inside. …and there I found a page, which made my world turn dark and so heavy, for the next many years. The page said; you come home high on cocaine, and smelling of sperm … It was a giant trauma on our innocent knowing of each other in all ways. BUT, all that aside, years later I realised, that this was the masses of peoples energies, who were not women, that energetic pollution ….what I felt that day on his arrival in Copenhagen. So it was accurate after all, in every single notion of every detail.

So my point with this CRAZY STORY is, who?, or how many people in this world are so tuned in!? …I can’t even say for sure, if I have ever met anyone like that! …so yeah I feel alien.

Maybe now you see, a bit perhaps, why I say, that I might actually be too in tune to live a life constantly disturbed by such intimacy energies, of people (women, ..whatever) that I didn’t choose by own desire ~ pure own free will. I can only give to one at a time, to a special someone.

So I am open to the fact, that the rest below here might become irrelevant from here on.

Maybe we could have our first video chat date on Skype and we could answer these questions there?

Tss.. haha.. I started answering these questions, as I had read half way through your message. haha.. ..so I see this, as the last thing, now having replied to it all …but, well anyway, there is still enough to say about all of it, so that doesn’t even really matter.

You can find me by searching on Skype: W…….

v…….@gmail.com

Better to use the gmail call system, because my skype keeps freezing. …so I can’t even pick up a call. (I’m on iPad, because I’m not in my nice old victorian Berlin-flat, but in sheeple-Denmark now, where I of course don’t have my iMac).

You can find my sustainable bamboo parasol creations (that I mentioned in the world-travels),

here http://smilaz.webs.com/indetail.htm

Take care,

Mila

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